Have you ever heard the term, "If you build it, they will come"?
Not long ago, I was contemplating this question, wondering how the guidance I was given, would ever truly assist in my evolution.
Questioning, the tools. the knowledge and the awareness of which I received daily, even the path I was on... if it was really meant for me, and who was I to speak or share such things... because to me, it felt so far out, and foreign in nature, to what I knew growing up "without wings". Yet, as I begun to process what was coming through, I realized I had not fully accepted that this is who I was by nature, I was judging me, and what I had been cultivating. It was a fear, of who I was becoming.
As I continued to let down my walls, and learn to trust a little more in what was showing itself to me, I soon became aware that these insights and perceptions were not only present in this life, I began to accept that I have actually been cultivating this knowledge over time, life after life. Building my tool belt and examining the presence of the soul in form, is something I have been doing for quite some time, in fact, we all are.
So when I started formulating the picture I had in my mind of what The Soul Collective would come to be in time, I questioned what I was doing, because as I took on this calling, and started building it, I was unsure of it. I mistrusted my guidance. I denied it and I felt in fear of it. Not because it was something to fear, but rather because I was unsure how others, especially my family, would come to accept me as I shared this side of me. Understanding that I came from a fairly open-minded community, I was still fearful of how others would treat me, as I stepped into my gifts of healing, intuitive insight, and creative vision, that could transform worlds, right before my eyes. I mean... I was raised to believe those things were miracles, and that I always thought were just for Jesus or Buddha, never did I understand, from my "human mind" that as we progress in time, we are literally transforming the way we see and perceive life, and how miracles arise. That miracles are no more than us as spiritual beings, stepping further into our awareness of collective being, inside our human form, granting access to the depths of our consciousness and how we can access our minds to create in unspeakable ways, and receive telepathic communication from all sorts of levels of the multi-dimensional forms we are.
See, right there... those words, I used to judge, I lived in fear of who I was, because of who I thought I had to be, and how much I longed for others to accept me. Unknowingly, I was only seeking, me to accept me. For my human mind, to accept the soul that lived inside this vehicle I am, and what gifts it could provide, as I chose to open my eyes, as I chose to open my heart and my mind to what I could create in this life time.
Learning through the process, that I am not the one who is the Creator of what channels through me, that there is something, inside me, that creates through me, I am merely the vessel that speaks, writes, paints, draws and examines the details of it all. My soul, the star inside this self and the multidimensional aspect of who I am as a whole, is the one who shares its knowledge with me and with all.
Yet, because I was still battling who I was and what I wanted to be, I negated the fact, that I, was already me, and that all I needed to do, was learn to accept who I was most naturally. That I chose these lessons and that I chose to walk this path with others that might judge me for what I share because as I stand up for what I believe in, and choose to learn and expand who I am as a human, so to accept all forms, all aspects of life. Understanding that as I expand my mind, I transform and thus ignite within me a new soul form.
A being in which dives in for more, one who explores.
And thus, I am a Consciousness Explorer. I choose to dive into who I am and what it means to be, and how we as one, came to be. Then, through my teachings, through the spirit inside me speaking, I have come to discover much more than I could have ever dreamed, and begun to share it in the best ways I knew how, and this is how The Soul Collective came about.
There was a calling inside myself, for me to spread my vision, wisdom, and knowledge about, to tap into who I am, as one, and speak it out loud, so that others, as they begin waking up to who they are, inside and out, will also learn to discover more. Thus, as I begun to build The Soul Collective's form, I began understanding it was not about my evolution, it was about our evolution, as one. And through my coming to see this, to bring this awareness into my being, it began to take its own form and begun to show itself in the best way it could, right now. And that as it progresses in time, and as I continue to expand my mind, I can begin to bring forth the greater visions, it has for its life, and how that can assist the rise of all life.
Thus, as I did, I let go of it "needing to be a money maker" and chose to accept that what I was doing was offering it a way to speak, to be its own vessel, and that as it connects to others, who are in need, those doors I have created to connect to me, will open to those in need. Therefore, as I explore what it means to create a Conscious Business, I so too set off on a path to rediscover, how money flows to us, from the Creator within us. And that money is not made by us, it is an energy that which flows through from one hand to another, in a way to connect and celebrate what gifts, the God within gives.
Therefore, as I build out its form, as I continue to feed into its art form, in the healthiest ways I know how, and as I do so for all other aspects of myself, I can begin to flourish, in the ways that feel prosperous, through this new paradigm I live in. Becuase, where I am now, is not where I once was and even though, it may appear as so, in some ways, I had to come to awareness, that there is always more there than what the eyes can perceive because this is all an illusion. That it is up to us to wake up and see, the growth that has taken place inside us, so we can be the healthiest forms we can be, in all ways, mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually, energetically, financially, so forth and so on.
So as I began the process of forming The Soul Collective, I didn't quite realize how much I'd need to learn about myself, that I would be stepping into an entirely new world, and a new way of creating, from both ends of giving and receiving. And that as I stepped deeper onto that path, it would ask me to clear more and more of the conditioning I had created around what it meant to be me, what it meant to be human, what it means to be spiritual and what it meant to be open to receiving, what it would mean to flourish as a spirit. That I would be embarking upon a path that I will forever be blooming, learning and growing, creating and building, emanating a higher consciousness that is within me, speaking. So that we as form in unity, we can all evolve our beings, without attachment to needing, anything but the internal Source that inspires us to be, these human beings.
It's been a long, windy path with many highs and lows and I am certain there will be many more of these roads. Yet, now I understand that when you choose to answer a call, and the spirit inside you says "Build it and they will come." They do. When we are truly ready to "become" what we are destined to become.