I have travelled, high and low, in and out, searching, seeking, learning to discover, embrace and bring about an awareness of who I am, at my core and why I am here, now. An it has brought me to this... how each experience that comes to pass, is just that an experience that comes to pass.
Over time, though, I seem to come back to this one question, that seems to trigger me...
"What truly makes something or someone stay?"
I circulate this question, understanding that there is no one answer, there are many and while I have discovered many, those few things that seem to matter the most to me, right now, still have yet to be here, grounded, actually implemented and being here, so to take action, in the process of unification and be expressed as a consistent reflection that I get to experience in my day to day experience.
And I realize, that's because of what I am asking, what I am seeking... isn't something that is fleeting, it is something and someone that is eternally beating, and connected so deeply that it fuels not just this life, it is everything, lifetimes in the making, searching and seeking, another I know so purely as me, such a deep reflection of my inner reality, the opposition and yet the same essence, the pureness..
But this world, is built on illusion, an illusion of unsureness, uncertainty and empowers human beings to play games with others, to see who can hold more power over the other, who can be more in control of the world, you're here to create together and I'm over it.
I want realness, I want co-creation, I want truth and that doesn't mean the playfulness gets taken out of it, it means it gets taken to a whole new level. Something far beyond this world, this life, this dream, this idea. It means there is more to see, more realities to play with, more worlds to dabble in.
For me, to find this, it always comes back to love and the essence of what this world has painted as power, money.
From my perspective, I have come to see it's reflection as an ability to see your true essence, the truth of who you are, and how you can build upon the unveiling of that truth, the ability to receive a higher state of consciousness, unveiling more time and space to activate an awakening, and a remembering of our worthiness.
The question looms, do you feel deserving, and will you wake up so to see, the truth of what it is you are here unfolding, from both ends, not just this moment, not just for yourself, but for others, those of which you are here to create together, to love, to embrace and to exist with as embodied reflections in your day to day experience.
And that's just it, how do I share the knowledge of what Ihave come to see, so to ground this new level of consciousness into my reality and accept and receive what it is I desire to be, the life, the dream, the idea of what I see inside me, the me and you, together, creating in harmoney.
So I find my ways, I discover my path and I share that now, in this way, the best way I can unfolding pictures of what I see inside my head, without money to lend a hand. Simply being, me, sharing, from my core, letting go, of what I think I need to do, and just do, to follow the steps and take action upon them, where I feel called to, and to step into the processes that may not feel so good in the moment, but I know will offer me future added benefit.
You see, money comes, everything you need to move forward, always comes, it's always going to be there, arriving exactly in a time in which you need. There truly is no need to worry, yet the mind, it worries, it doubts, it fears and adds obstacles for you to climb over so to build your strength and test your internal power, your will to move forward. And while you are here, so long as you can accept that what you have to offer, who you are and what you are creating in the moment you are living, is of value, not just for you, but for others too, the world will offer you more then you could have ever dreamed of, a way to defy impossibility.
So why do we seem to focus so much on this image or idea, of needing money to move forward?
Because this world 'thinks' it needs, rather then seeing, what the truth of what it really seeks, love. Its controlled by it, believing that in order to "get ahead" it needs money, to be seen, to be felt, to be heard by those that love them. Rather then taking action on what it is we really want, we block ourselves from actually receiving from engaging something we know can help us, can propel us, awaken us, and amplify our hearts, our dreams and our ideas, because of we haven't the 'money' in this moment to make it happen.
You see people fear, they can move forward, because they don't feel they are free enough to do so, they feel weakened, crippled by what they are not seeing, rather then valuing what it is they are seeing, what they do have, and what it is they are creating. And in order for us all to rise up, its come time for us to accept and love ourselves, for exactly where we are, flaws and all, imperfections and all, Realness, the raw.
The three areas it seems to boil down that I have come to find, that people tend to prevent themselves from moving forward in are:
- Love / Relationships
- Career / Financial Freedom
- Awakening / Health and Wellness
So let's look at this a bit deeper, because I feel its an important to discuss.
In Love and Relationships
In terms of love, how often will you or others around you, not take action on the relationships they really want in life, because they hold a fear of not being good enough, worthy enough, valued to the degree they think they need in order to receive something or someone they love. That of which is meant to be, consistently implementing new blocks and hurdles, running in circles, forever seeking. Rather then just returning to the moment, the time of which you met and came into contact and poured your heart out then. You see, everything you want, is already met, you have all you need.
So long as you are willing to look and see eternally.
Opening new doors to receive, to release limitations, except the limitations inside your own mind. 'Thinking' that life needs to be perfect before moving forward. Preventing you from receiving more then you could have ever dreamed of, because your ego got in control of your head. The picture is never gonna look perfect. But the feeling, is, the feeling of realness, is there, its always there if you are willing to look at it.
I've made this mistake so many times, over and over again, running in fear, seeking for something I though was "out there", when I already know, exactly where it is, I know exactly how to find it, and I'm doing everything I can in every moment, I am to see it happen. While taking action, I'm also releasing, and I know thats important, because thats where the magic happens.
When you allow yourself to let go and trust the universe has got it. The universe shall provide whats most important.
In Career and Financial Freedom
So what about your career? Your work and your dreams? The place in which most expect to receive their money, because of the picture this world has painted.
I first of want to say, while it happens and seems to be the most viable answer, the path that seems to have the most flow in it, I can attest, that this is NOT where the money comes from, it comes from within. I have spent almost three years learning this, and many other lessons along the way, so to discover that, while it is one space in which money appears to come from, from the projects you've created or jobs you've taken or opportunities you've stepped into, the money comes from within, the money comes from you doing what you love. And thats it. Following the guidance, the internal truths of what you want, answering the calls of the subconscious mind, unleashing your power to create the ideas, to pour out your heart and sou into something that will inspire others and empower your heart to create digger roots, whatever that vision is for you, is for you to know and do. No one can tell you what to or not to do, it is up to you to find what fuels you, and empowers you to rise up, to wake up and to feel good about yourself, your world, and your life, every day you are living. To find ways that will be of service, to you and to your world, your life and your reality surrounding.
I used to think I had to work really hard, I'd beat myself up, if I wasn't working hours on end, burning the rope from both ends, and that left me depleted, and honestly I can still get trapped into that idea, that experience, because the fears, they run deep, in everyone, in everything, because we are not just dealing with our own consciousness, we are dealing with our collectives, our world's and everything in which we meet inside and outside of us.
Its about a balance.
So how can we have fulfilling careers and reap rewards, the benefits of truly living a thriving and empowered life? Love. That's just it, it always comes back to love in life. To do what you love, to do what makes you feel good, to seek what will embrace you, uplift you and your reality, your heart and your light. Not just something that just feels good for the moment. Its about finding something you are so passionate about, something that empowers you to write about, to talk about, to live about and be about, that it becomes you. That it is so deeply rooted in your truth, your heart, your light and love, that it is expressed as a facet of you, that when you look at it, when others see it, they know it, they recognize it as yours, because they know, you are sharing your heart, your truth, your heart, your dreams, and there's no way to deny that perspective of being, because it is what we all seek. The truth of who we are, the light of which we know to be, love.
Yet, this world, it has taught us to shut our hearts down, at least from what I have seen in our past, taught us that our hearts must be protected from others, and that may be true, if you allow it, but there is a way you can rise above it, we can all rise above it, but in order for us all to receive it, to no longer feel the pain, the suffering, the judgement, we must as a world choose it. We as a collective, as a union, in co-creation, must choose it. Must truly want it, not for a fleeting moment, yet for the eternal presence. And thus, the purpose for an awakening, finding our balance of health as wealth.
The Awakening / Health and Wellness
You see we are in a time, a great awakening upon our planet, because there have been and will continue to be a rise of consciousness on our planet, as we pass through new energy in our universe and as a collective, we are being asked to dive into it and we have answered a call to do just that, to dive into it and discover our purpose, to discover how we can share our ideas, our thoughts and our feelings and bring them to light through our creative gifts.
As we dig deeper into this energy, as we move through a new layer in the photon belt and a new time frame, a generation of enlightenment, it means more often people are choosing love, and in order to do more then just survive, we must be willing to step up into our mission, into what we came here in service of, so to spread our light as best we can, in the ways that are offered to us, in the moment we are in, here and now.
And now more then ever before, there are more of us "coming online" to share our visions, of a life full of love, of passion and of sureness, that we can rise up and out of anything that crosses our paths to test us, to remind us of our strength and to encourage us to dig deeper and awaken into a new level of reality, one of which ill-ness is no longer, because we understand our power, our gifts to heal, to shift our vibrations and to express our hearts as love and light.
But still, even while doing so, because the programs run so deep, so ingrained in our society, we look at the picture we are seeing right now and have an expectation of what that needs to be, right now, based upon what others have taught us, rather then looking inside and seeing all that is to come, all that is arriving and accepting that this life is about the journey. That we are here to create and explore and step into a new adventure, each day, each moment we embrace a new beginning to see the beauty that surrounds and supports our being.
That mean, looking at your moment, with the most objective presence, to look at all the flaws, all the raw, rough edges and loving it more then ever, looking at what is real, the feeling you get inside of you when you touch the soul of that idea, that dream and that goal, to see inside of it, it's purity, and fall so deeply in love with it, that you would be willing to do anything, face any obstacle or hiccup that may be expressed as a moment to pass, and embrace it so to confess your truth, of how much love you have for it, how much love comes from it, so to embrace its fullness. Letting go of fear of rejection, because no matter how far you push it, no matter how far you go to express your truth's, your love and value of what it is, that it sticks around, and is willing to dig deeper to be there, now.
And when you touch it's heart, the heart of the dream of what you feel inside you is destined for you, you drop the picture of what you 'think' it needs to be, you let go of what it needs to look like, and you just keep re-affirming yourself into, as the now, knowing that the feeling you have inside of you, is what you're actually seeking. For you to find you, so to love yourself, more than anything else. Then, there as new ideas, and then their reflections, the pictures of which you can take action upon, surface, you can continue to do your best, to make conscious choices of what matters to you, and the vision of what your internal source is offering you, seeing that you are worth it. That you hold such a high value and the concept, the idea of what you seek, is possible, because it has been brought to you, as an idea of possibility for you, to fully accept and receive and implement as a possibility, and when you and the reflection of what you see, come into alignment, in the time and space that is meant to be, it shall be and it will stick. It shall remain as solidified in your experience, as someone and something, that is willing to do the work, to meet you, to discover more about you, because to them, to it, you are a dream too.
There, in that moment is when you begin to co-create with that reality, with the other side of what is sending and sharing that signal, the reflection of you, the higher self and the vision of which has already received what it is you are seeing before you. So to lead you along the way to discover your truth, your moments, that will bring about the vision of love, money, sex, passion, family and glory, and everything in between that enlightens you, to dig deeper and discover more truth about you.
I promise, it's possible, and that's exactly why the awakening is arriving, to bring us forth into a new age where we see, our internal realities as external, where all is possible and what your heart wills into place, it arrives, through the lens of peace, through the process unfolding, rather then the feeling of you needing to do or be everything, you can sit back, rest and relax, just be, you eternally living, free to be, you fully.
That by you, being you, so open, so giving, so trusting and knowing in the highest power, above all else, you, your greatest strength and power, your will to succeed at whatever you desire, you know, there is no need to play games in a power struggle, rather, you find yourself playing a game, that may appear something like hide and seek, that takes place across galaxies, across universes and multiple dimensions.
And that as you embrace life with a deeper sense of play, of joy and laughter, so to embrace the game of self-discovery, you come to find yourself, you recognize yourself, your soul, your family, your tribe and your greatest reflection of all time, the original reflection of you. Not attached to what this world labels it, but what you know inside of you.
The reflection of the I am, as a whole, in form.
So as you go about manifesting your dreams, your desires, your visions of which you here, ready to receive so effortlessly, you keep doing so and trust that what you need to rise you up, will always come through, when you need it to, and when you are willing to release what you have come to find, inside of you.
From my experience, what I have come to learn, is that what your heart wants more then anything, is you. And that vision of you, won't stay, unless you value you first, above all else, so you must be willing to do the work. And as you do, the others that come to view, will come through as reflections of you, because you have chosen, to elevate the consciousness in you.
So as I spend my time, alone, in deep reflection, seeking to re-integrate, into a world, to receive my "american dream" I let go, of all pre-conceived notions, and embrace a deeper sense of feeling, so that as I keep on wandering, discovering the self, exploring this life through adventurous eyes, I open my heart to the angel inside of you, as I see in me.
And thus, I come as a reflection for you, that the universe will always offer you what you need, when you are willing to see the lessons in your reality and choose to see a different perspective to come to pass, by continuously letting go, trusting, appreciating, being there, no matter what happens. That you love relentlessly, the wholeness of and the beauty of who we are, finding new ways to love all the good and the bad, the highs and the lows, the ins and the outs, the pretty moments and the ugly ones. That you see the flaws and accept through the eyes of love, that those changes, cannot take place unless someone or something is willing to change, and you must first be willing to be the change you wish to see in the world.
So look in, dig deep and discover your true beauty, the heart of who you are, in all ways you can, so that as you meet with other reflections, they too can find the angel inside the rock. And then taking the steps, they need to take each and every day, to carve out the rough edges, so to provide an empowered landscape for that angel to feel free, to come out and shine in this world, we are all here co-creating.
Because you and I and everything else, we need to face, is worth it, so to realize our truth, our pureness, our hearts and be sure of it.
I love you and you are perfectly imperfect.