This morning it was as if I was forced back to sleep. I had awoken at 7 AM and yet, somehow I felt unable to fully get up and out of bed. I usually work a lot with my dreams and I know from my past, in these moments, Spirit has got a message for me. So as I try to open my eyes, I feel the pull to sleep again, suddenly I awaken at 11 AM and realize, I was forced to fall asleep, so a vision could arise.
These mornings are some of my favorite to wake up to / from. Because I know these messages are important. Lately, I've been noticing a lot of moments where people are standing right behind me and at first I thought it was creepy. However, something inside me said "pay attention". So I allowed it, came to learn to accept it and began to see it happen, over and over again. I realized it was Spirit, suggesting, there is something coming up "behind me" that I am not yet seeing. To learn to trust in the unknowing, as this is a deep process I have been moving through more frequently lately. There is something that has been saying, to let go even more of needing to control what happens, because only when you let go, can things actually happen.
In order to let go, you must be able to fall back, and truly find a way to trust that "the universe has your back". So as I awoke this morning, from the vision I was given, I was being shown how I was fully supported by Spirit, and those of which I am connected to.
In my vision, I was shown an experience I am to produce, a retreat in Cali that I will go to and that there are people and opportunities for me to allow into my world, but in order to do so I must let go of my guards. This specific example was shown as someone coming up behind me to hug me and hold me. So that I could truly feel as deeply as I do, if not more, in this reality, that there is love surrounding me and the Universe is sending messengers here to support me. That I can let go and trust, fall back into open arms and be ok with the means of which I am provided for. Which for me is pretty hard. I always want to know "how" things will transform and "when" they will happen, but I also want to feel independent, and in the past that's meant me controlling every situation. And thats something I'm currently working with and the Universe has placed me in such a position, that I literally have to trust it, or feel like I might be going crazy. lol.
But in all honestly, what I realize, we don't see what's "coming up behind us", because thats how surprises happen, we literally have 1/4 of our vision "hidden" on purpose, because without that element of surprise, we'd always know what is going to happen. And I dunno about you, but honestly... I love when surprises happen. They are some of the most exciting of moments.
So ya... I'm ready Universe! What epically awesome surprises can you send my way? Because I'm here and I know you're playing away.